re: the original post, . . . I dunno, I've pretty much done everything I've wanted to do - within reason. As well as some stupid things, but thats life isn't it?
If I were to go tommorow, probably fester until my neighbors would start to complain. Then it would be obvious that there was another DB in this apt. complex.
Last week it was a overdose,... two months ago some old guy expired. It happens.
What about - what would you like to do if it were possible to do it, if you could make a fantasy be true. So you won't have any regrets when your time comes..... not that you're gonna become a shikabane or anything like that.

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