Jakuryusei said:
You fear messiness far too much Shima-kun!
Here, I'm prescribing you some Alan Watts...
he sounds like my thoughts when i start becoming sleep deprived, and now im too busy thinking about it to go to sleep. like, i know straight lines and smooth curves are aesthetically pleasing, but perhaps it's the way ive conditioned my mind over the past few months, perhaps i need to remove myself from the city to regain perspective on the big picture, but what is the big picture? does it end at our world? or does it extend to the end of the universe? or maybe there are more universes out there all floating around some transcendental object that we cant even fathom. and perhaps all that is just a small part in a much bigger story that defies logic.
when it comes down to it, what is reality? is reality subjective? objective? how would we know if it existed if we weren't here? sure there's proof, but maybe it's all a rationalization made up by our brains, those neurons and chemicals that let us feel pain, let us see and hear and touch, perhaps all of those are manufactured, too. perhaps we're all just a dream in someone's head. would that person be god? if he wakes, would we cease to exist? does time or sleep even mean anything to him? what is time? if it flows differently depending on how fast you move, does it really matter what time it is? why do we split time into seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, and so forth? who made them up, how would they know exactly how long a second is, its not like they would have a way to tell exact time down to the second. why do we confine ourselves to these numbers, sleep every day, go to work every day, and then complain that theres not enough of it...
but anyways, thanx for making my brain once again explode, i'll probably be up for the next 2 days as well.